heavy-headed stanzie the juggernaut

stole a silver ring from the carnival

what a thought

heavy-lidded stanzie who speaks

to strangers, schizophrenics, in tongues

& monster rhymes

coaxing visions from school boys

rocket toys

sick-saddled stanzie suddenly

stuck, her twisted kidneys * gut

on the beige couch

should she sleep now? should she

stanzie on air

stanzie stares

coughing laughing soaked together

always the white halls

always the thick walls, metal detectors

tripping past her shoes, traveling somewhere

sodden, coated with cow dung

stanzie takes an escalator up to the sky

stanzie why

why

stay still

Heroin

it could have hurt more but not for long

instead there will be hurt mixed with euphoria

& periods of relief but it will go on and on

like a slow weane from heroin

& she will beg for an increase,

accept a decrease grudgingly

sick & sappy through the night

then waking sterile,

out, off, done

stanzie, sweetie,

try to speak

stanzie, honey,

slip to sleep